Also remember this and this is very very important, if you can't be with the one you love, then tie up the one your with.
Master Dark

December 31st 2009 2:49 AM

Its the end of the year already, this year has flown by to me.  Its been a year of ups, downs then ups again, its been an interesting year to say the least.

For the most part its been a year I have spent in much solitude, allot of reflecting on where I'm going.

December 24th 2009 1:36 PM

Merry Xmas

12 days of Xmas the only way to have it

Would Xmas be complete without our xmas bondage sluts

And our lovely Xmas sluts, this is what we all want waiting under the tree

December 23rd 2009 4:41 AM

Keeping this short as I'm tired.  I have to say this holiday has been the most tolerable I have yet to experience, I have been left alone for the most part and that's the way I like it, I have been out to my mall a few times this month and have to go back tomorrow to pick something up, I am still bothered by the amateur shoppers but what can you do and it is always pleasant to me to know.

I leave you with Morpheus

Morpheus: I imagine that right now you're feeling a bit like Alice. Tumbling down the rabbit hole?
Neo: You could say that.
Morpheus: I can see it in your eyes. You have the look of a man who accepts what he sees because he's expecting to wake up. Ironically, this is not far from the truth. Do you believe in fate, Neo?
Neo: No.
Morpheus: Why not?
Neo: 'Cause I don't like the idea that I'm not in control of my life.
Morpheus: I know exactly what you mean. Let me tell you why you're here. You're here because you know something. What you know, you can't explain. But you feel it. You felt it your entire life. That there's something wrong with the world. You don't know what it is, but it's there. Like a splinter in your mind -- driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to me. Do you know what I'm talking about?
Neo: The Matrix?
Morpheus: Do you want to know what it is?
(Neo nods his head.)
Morpheus: The Matrix is everywhere, it is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window, or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work, or when go to church or when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.
Neo: What truth?
Morpheus: That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else, you were born into bondage, born inside a prison that you cannot smell, taste, or touch. A prison for your mind. (long pause, sighs) Unfortunately, no one can be told what the Matrix is. You have to see it for yourself. This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back.
(In his left hand, Morpheus shows a blue pill.)
Morpheus: You take the blue pill and the story ends. You wake in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. (a red pill is shown in his other hand) You take the red pill and you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes. (Long pause; Neo begins to reach for the red pill) Remember -- all I am offering is the truth, nothing more.
(Neo takes the red pill and swallows it with a glass of water)

November 28th 2009 2:31 AM

My favorite time of the fucking year.  Last night the Queens mall was open at midnight, most of the stores were open so I went by to check it out, got there around midnight and to my surprise it wasn't as crazy as I thought it would be, got the best parking I have ever gotten there, the Starbucks kiosk was empty, first time I ever saw that there, mind you the Queens mall is in my opinion the worst mall I have ever been in but it was open at midnight.

Three different radio stations were there, so I was there like an hour then it started getting crazy and it was time for me to leave, I have no business being in the stores with these amateur holiday shoppers.  The crazy lines started in the stores I guess that were offering discounts and people were throwing shit around.

Then this evening I decided to go to Best Buy, I went to get something I really don't need but fuck it, it wasn't that bad but it was packed of course, so in all my years I believe this is the first Black Friday that I have ever ventured out shopping and it will be my last, again amateurs.

I'm thoroughly pissed at something today, I am on the warpath, what it is isn't important, not used to rejection when I see something I want I usually get it and that's that and I will probably be in a fowl mood for days to come as I spit fire and smoke.

Ok I get bored and do shit, this is one of my projects when I get bored, some home entertainment

November 1 2009 5:05 AM

Halloween motherfuckers, hahahahahahha.

Went and banged around in the city tonight, decided to get dressed up.

October 20th 2009 3:06 AM

The year is flying by fast, winter is here, hahahahaha well a little taste of it anyway the past few days.

Balloon boy, you got to love it one of the greatest hoaxes ever in my book and good for them.

See there's so many things I had to say and then its gone.

There have been some mistakes in my life I have shrugged off then there's the few mistakes I will never forget, as I have said before NO REGREST, regrets are a mindfuck with no release. Who's to say that if the mistakes weren't made that anything would have been different?  It would be great if we had a crystal ball but we don't motherfuckers, my point is there are those that believe mistakes makes our character, how we live through them carry on from them.  Its mistakes that make us who we are not our success, its our mistakes that can make success as we survive them, its this success that comes from failure.

Sometimes you cant get out of the mistake, or it seems you cant, or is that you don't want to?  I have made decisions in my life that people would look at and call me cold blooded because of my actions, because I have only thought of myself.  In my opinion this is success.

There are the few that if I could have back I would probably take a different turn or would I?  I love dark alleys at midnight where no one speaks English and I don't know the rules so I probably would make the same decisions I have made because this is where I want to be.

Anyway here are a couple of pics or me and my prince.

This little motherfucker prince gets on every last nerve that I have, he fucks with everyone in this house but we all love him so dearly, he is a fucking pest that must follow you everywhere, he is a evil evil bastard.

Still all in all I cant complain, well I could but who really gives a fuck, to borrow some lyrics from the Knot

"Yeah
Come on!
It never stops
You can't be everything to everyone
Contagion, I'm sitting at the side of Satan
What do you want from me?
They never told me the failure I was meant to be
Now, over do it; Don't tell me you blew it
Stop your bitching and fight your way through it
I'm - Not - Like - You - I - Just - Fuck - Up
C'mon, motherfucker everybody has to die
C'mon, motherfucker everybody has to die
Everybody has to die"

October 9th 2009 2:47 AM

Having some work done of my teeth so I cant eat on one side of my face for a while, what am I bitching about really.

October 5th 2009 9:47 PM

Guess what I found my little ones, I found my files.  I will not procrastinate and get them up

September 12th 4:30 AM

I honestly still cant believe the WTC was bombed 8 years ago, so many unanswered questions from that day.  I'm watching this shit in the history channel all day, most of the day and its like it was today for me remembering that day.

I don't think we will ever be able to swallow the truths of that day and for those like me, well for me anyway it doesn't take anything away from the people that lost there lives that day.  It still makes me just as angry and the feeling of powerlessness.

The WTC was and still is my favorite place in the world, I was there a week before it happened for the first time ever at night.  Personally for me the towers were a rock that could not be shaken, it means for really, drives home that there is no tomorrow in our lives that nothing is forever.

On a conspiracy note to think our govt had nothing to do with this your out of your mind.  Why did W just sit there as we were under attack?  Why weren't fighter jest deployed as soon as the first flight flight 11 went off the grid deployed?  Why was everything handled so shoddy when a week earlier exercises were run for this very type of event?  Why are there no crash burns around the pentagon?  Just go and do the research yourself and see what you come up with you will see the truth.

Fuck I had more and the fucking program crapped out, let me try and remember.

Many people will tell me that a conspiracy of that magnitude could not happen as to many people would have to been kept quiet, wrong there's only a few people needed to make it work, see the start of WW1 and the Vietnam war just to name two.

On a lighter note, I'm a serious minority in a minority, so fuck you all.

I have to get so many of my photos up, here's one, I'm reluctant to put it up as someone will steal it but I'm proud of it.

September 8th 2:55 AM

I have been living under a rock, I had no idea the Virgin Mega Store in Union Square closed.  It closed in July I think, I found out last week as I was calling to see what time they were closing.  This had become my favorite place, after the WTC the mega store took its place where I can go and get lost, feel small and desensitize, its been a while since I have been there maybe back in the Spring.  This summer passed me by, like I give a fuck right, I didn't do anything, no festivals, 1 or 2 shows, I didn't even go see Hatebreed last week at the Starland, had tickets but didn't feel like driving.  Been laying low its simple.

September 1 12:14 PM

So it was brought to my intention that the current administration would like to pass a bill that would give them power over the internet to shut it down on emergencies and freeze it.  At the same time they are looking at a gun bill that would also be one step closer to a socialized state in which we live.

WAKE THE FUCK UP PEOPLE

Doesn't China and Iran and countries like that restrict there internet and govt has control over it?

The current govt is frightened over social networks like Twitter that it gives us to much power to organize.  Obama was elected by the grass roots movement that he is now getting worried for as time goes on it will become quite clear to us that he is no different than any other politician and cares not about the people but his own power.

As more and more of our rights get stripped what makes us different from Nazi Germany as they rounded up Jews?  Do you think that one day the Nazis woke up and said lets round up the Jews?  No it was gradual.  I think it probably went something like this.

When the Nazis first made the Jews wear armbands they were probably like were proud to be Jews why not wear armbands, then when they moved into ghettos they were probably like were Jews why shouldn't we want to live together and on and on it went.

Ok so our govt is not marching us to concentration camps or are they.  Debt and the economy is one of our forms of genocide.  I would also go far as say that we who supposedly live in the greatest country in the world have no national healthcare or affordable insurance, obesity and yes even malnutrition have an effect on us. 

Poverty will kill how many of us even more so in the coming years? 

So as each right is taken from us, as each freedom is stripped away, with each new tax levied on us further placing a choke hold on the common man we become more beaten, more untrustworthy and more adjusted to our lives being run by the govt.  We become a modern day sort of comfortable Nazi Germany. We accept each new move into the so called "its for your security" laws that are placed or even thought of.

The Matrix is real, we are sheep.

"You take the blue pill, the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in Wonderland, and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes."

August 28th 12:02 PM

I've cleaned up allot of shit on the site.

So by now we have all heard about this sick as fuck out west that had the kidnapped girl for 18 years and fathered 2 children with her.  Took her when she was 11 and was using her as a sex slave and obvious child factory.

What can I say here?  He needs extreme justice that's what he needs. 

Here's something I don't understand in our society, this guy is a repeat offender, done time for kidnapping and rape, was visited by the police and parole officers that found nothing suspicious about the tent city that was erected in his back yard housing a kidnap victim and the 2 children she bore from this fucking mistake.

" The investigating officer spent a half-hour interviewing Garrido on his front porch but did not enter the house or search the backyard, Contra Costa County Sheriff Warren E. Rupf said. The deputy, who did not know Garrido was a registered sex offender even though the sheriff's department had the information, warned Garrido that the tents could be a code violation before leaving "

"It was not the only missed opportunity. As a parolee, Garrido wore a GPS-linked ankle bracelet that tracked his every movement, met with his parole agent several times each month and was subject to routine surprise home visits and random drug and alcohol tests, California Department of Corrections and Rehabilitation spokesman Gordon Hinkle said."

WHAT THE MOTHERFUCKING FUCK

I don't even want to get into why that pisses me off to degrees you have no idea, and if you did then you would understand how I can be a little pissed off about that.

Don't you think we also need to have there names, that they should be fired as we have failed again to protect the innocents of the world.

These pedophile predators need to be either locked up forever or killed, there's no fixing them,  I was listening to some show today and these motherfuckers were saying, in defending the treatment or these predators that's its about learning how to control these feelings and thoughts.

OK here's a fucking thought, I'm 42 years old and I have never once thought about having sex with a child, me who loves ladies dressed up as school girls has never once thought or had any kind of feeling for this.

Here's another thought, if your the kind of person that has these thoughts and feelings do us and you a favor and put a bullet in your fucking head, or in a moment of clarity tell us you need to be locked the fuck forever away from society.

I will disagree on one point, people seem to think this is a new thing its not we just know more about it now, this has been going on since the beginning of time because its a defect in the brain, we just know more about it now than before because of all the media we have now.

For all the bleeding hearts who want to scream about there rights I ask you again what about this poor girl, her mother, her stepfather who was a suspect, the trickle down affect of the life's that have been touched by this single incident and if this isn't enough for you fuckers to understand that sometimes the humane thing to do is out the animal out of his misery than you are all fucked.

But I'm the sicko right?

Fuck you all

August 19th 5:29 PM

OK, back from sunny CA, was Slipknot what I thought it would be?  Was it worth the trip?  Well its always worth the trip, I mean I put 2 more famous arenas down that I've seen shows in.  But was it worth it?  Of course it was fucking worth it what the fuck do you think.

Again not the greatest shows I've ever seen, end of the tour, 1 more left now and there fucking tired what can you say.  So far this year the shows lack something, I think there heads are to big maybe.  I saw some bizarre shit at these shows, little children, I mean little children, there was 1 little guy had to be four but he was throwing fingers, got to love him, and his father was hard so that was ok, no I'm talking abut the little fucks that could only go if mom and dad brought them.  Now I guess I understand the need for a parent to be "down"  but stay the fuck out the pit ok.

First night, L.A. at the forum, now I always heard about the forum so Im happy just to be standing there, I'm living the dream mother fuckers don't ever forget that and it was all worth it.  Ok so I know when there coming on and a second before they come on I lung forward, now get this, a women taps me and says can you move I have to watch my son.  I have to watch my son?  Then get the fuck out of here, war is about to take place, take him to the fucking seats if you have to watch him you have got to be fucking kidding me.  I should have spit on her now that I think about it but I was just like whatever and moved closer.

Can you imaging such a thing?

The intensity is gone. all of the show is staged at this point, I hope they regroup and get it right or its time  for some of us to move on, I'm getting that feeling I got way back when when I realized Metallica was going from hard to soft.

San Diego was more of the same, no parents though telling me they have to watch there kids.  I think it might be time for the band to listen to some of Corey's rants about bullshit music.  I guess I want the Electric factory again.

Whatever the case I enjoyed myself, 2 shows in 2 nights in CA, I love my life what can I say, I wouldn't trade any of it not a single moment of the good the bad or the ugly and there has been plenty of ugly, hahahahahahahahahahaha, fuck the ugly.

People come and go and come again in my life,  for us, you know who we are read the top of the page if your not fucking sure, time stands still, 10 years ago is really yesterday, there is no time when you have no guilt.

So here's to next fall when the boys should be back again, I doubt I'm traveling to Europe this summer to see the, its a festival and could I really take several festivals?  That would kill me.

Now one part of the trip I wasn't expecting, San Diego.  I didn't get allot of time there but I think I found heaven on earth or close to it anyway.  As I was driving down the coast all of a sudden I got a glimpse of the ocean, mind you I have seen the west coast before, I have never seen the pacific before. I've seen ocean, I live on the east coast, I've seen endless ocean off Long Island, CT, Florida, up and down the east coast ok, I've seen the Atlantic off the coast of Ireland ok, its not like I've never seen ocean, well maybe I haven't after seeing this.

I've been all over the world, well not the whole world not yet anyway but I've been to allot of places all right, and in one moment I have to say I was breathless.

Driving down the coast as the scenery changes, the land becomes I don't know how to describe it, it becomes richer, the greens get greener, the browns get browner.  I felt calm.  I wished I had more time but I didnt, I wil be back to that motherfucker real soon trust me.

Well here's the ocean

San Diego Coast

The pics are huge, I didn't resize them, of you can see it I don't know, in looking out at the ocean it looks mountains at the line of site, its not its the ocean, so that's what I'm saying when I'm saying I have never seen ocean.  Maybe that's where I retire to.

One last rant, why do people need to look so fucking important in airports?  Why do they need to be on there laptops like there doing something, or on there phones like there so important?  When the fuck did it become ok for men not to shave?  I mean I'm a long haired tattoo freak ok but I am fucking clean shaven, always, old school, all right.  Also now I am a shoe lunatic ok, I cant go into a store and not buy a pair of shoes, but when I ask you did the gay shoe become so acceptable in man?  When the fuck did all this happen, I live in my own world that doesn't cross lines to often into that other world, when I do it gets me crazed in a way that you have no understanding how powerful the lust becomes, and only you special people know what lust I'm talking about.

Also when the fuck did the common Joe think he can look at me that way?  Does he not think I'm going to do or at the very least say something?  This is not the fucking 70s but also more important, 1 in 25 they just don't understand.

February 28th 2009 2:51 AM

There's so much to say, I have to really start recording my rants when they come up instead of trying to remember them now.

If you don't know the Matrix is real than there's no hope for you at all.

Watching this More film, who I really cant fucking stand by the way, Sicko, ok so as I'm watching this film I'm wondering more and more what the fuck am I doing still living here in this great country. We are a 3rd world country, don't you realize it now? Fuck 3rd world that would be a improvement, we are straight communists, think about I mean really think about it.

Can you do whatever you want to do?  No.

Can you say whatever you want to? No

Are you forced to work like a slave in fear of loosing your job, not knowing how your going to make ends meet?  What does the Govt give us back for our taxes? Nothing.

February 18th 2009 11:01 PM

Yeah I'm early so what

West coast here I come, 2 nights 2 Knot shows, Ill leave Saturday and come back Monday, you only live once motherfuckers, no regrets hear me.

It always seems that when I look back a year in my life , it seems like its been 10, so much shit happens in my day to day its not even funny. I have calmed down from a year ago, not running the streets late at night like I was, I feel the night call though all the time, its just not the time to do that, I also feel the calm.

February 17th 2009 12:29 AM

So I'm like 90% that I'm headed west for 2 shows, crazy motherfucker that I am

February 12th 2009 2:27 Am

All right, so the biggest Slipknot show in the worlds  greatest venue MSG and I walked out, now my seat sucked, yeah it was a fucking seat, I thought I had GA but no I didn't, I have been so far away to see the knot and the energy was non existent, a sad feeling came over me as I realized I would probably never again see them in the electric factory or Roseland, maybe Ill have to travel to see those crazy shows again, I mean people were just standing there was no energy ok that was Thursday the 5th.

Saturday the 9th was different, down in Camden I had pit, I paid dearly for pit but you get what you pay for, now it wasn't insane, I mean the craziness that you would expect but it was there, up front in your face pounding Knot, no blood and I saw no one get carried off, I need Hatebreed for that.

So I pretty much stand in the same corner every show, I stand in Jim Roots corner don't know why, I guess I just like the left side of things.  I could swear he was throwing picks at me, been to enough shows for him to know its me, he also did something to make me think he's telling me hey, so not until I finally reach up and grab a pick does he stop throwing so its got to be for me.  Pretty cool.

I'm looking at heading west for a couple of shows, could be doable.  Pit seats are available for the shows I'm looking at, think I have to do it.

As always Philly was enjoyable, reached out to some new people while I was down there, lofts are cheap down there maybe the dream of 7000 square feet is still a  reality.  What would I do with so much space, fucking live that's what.  Some things would have to work out for me in the right way but maybe I can make it happen, its either that or Queens made up my mind, but I love it in the war zones you know me.

February 4th 1:12 Am

So the big weekend was all right, when my bday falls on Super Bowel weekend  I always feel like I get a 2 day birthday.  I have to say it started out a little funky, got to be really late or really early in the morning however you would look at it, did my traditional thing that's not of your fucking business, went to a club Saturday night, again got to bed late, work up kind of early considering the hour I went to sleep, watched a great game then some crazy karaoke, now I've never had karaoke girls, ok it was a little bizarre really it was, and I'm sure the situation was a little bizarre and maybe a first time for them  but it was ok, I know better for the next time now.

I worried myself  a little but, sometimes my mind isn't right, hahahahahahaha.

Here it is, my birthday is the most important day of the year for me, in the same breath I don't make any big deal about cause lets face it every day really is my birthday, I really am living the dream.  But its no big deal and its become more and more of a private thing for me,  sometimes the leaks in my brain seep through and cause some unpleasantness, hahahahahahaha, figure that one the fuck out.

Onto bigger and better things, have I reminded you lately that the matrix is real?  When are you going to take the red pill, are you ready for the truth and to find out how deep the rabbit hole really goes?

At this moment  on Yahoo a main story news line is

Joaquin Phoenix gives up acting to become hip-hop musician

Let me ask you something, what the fuck does have to do with anything?  This is where we have gone wrong, I could care fucking less if Joaquin has given up acting to go and suck goats cocks, I mean is this what we care about?  Our nation, fuck the world has become to concerned with what other people are doing and not what your doing, making everyone's life seem to fucking small.

The Matrix is real and media is one form of control.

The boys are coming, still not that excited have to be honest, think I'm going to be disappointed.

January 30 3:01 Am

Its almost that day. 

Slipknot is coming again, cant say IM very excited to see them, to me the new album was a disappointment, I've listened to it several times then took it out and haven't listened since it came out, Ill pop it back in tomorrow and see if it does anything to me.

I probably write this thing backwards, but ask me again do I give a fuck, at least I fucking spell check it.

Some strange things have been happening to me this year, yeah already, some good strange things, shit I wasn't really expecting but then isn't that what strange things are. 

Nothing can top the last year, I shouldn't say that, when you think things cant get any worse they do, events that  took place , never in my life did I think they would.  But they did.

So this year starts different from last,  old news is new beginnings, its good see where it goes.

I think long ago I accepted I sold my soul, hahahahahaha sounds terrible doesn't it but really it isn't, I think what I mean is I realized long ago that sacrifice was important, and no were not talking children or animals ok you sick fucks.  Just straight sacrifice, can you give up anything to be what you need to be?

"The cost of a thing" says Thoreau, "is the amount of what I will call life which is required to be exchanged for it, immediately or in the long run." Read Thoreau, read civil disobedience,  I have to read it again as I need a refresher.

The line is true and that's how I have sold my soul, what we will give up to see the goal, there is a price in every single choice we make

Yes that mood is upon me.  Just because I haven't voiced it by discontempt  (how the fuck do you spell that word) for our governments hasn't changed, we have to be careful in what we say now. 

All right I've been good, no outbursts in the street lately. 

This is prince, motherfucker, Satan, evil, and sometimes chocbol

He is an evil bastard at times, a pain in the ass most other times, he acts like a fucking dog and has taken to humping my leg,

Look at this fuckers eyes in the mirror.

January  14  2:41 AM

All right so I've been slacking the past couple of years in keeping all this shit updated, no excuses as usual and same ole pledge to strive better this year.

So yesterday I'm headed out, got some things on my mind as I'm walking down the street, now I hear this guy talking to me but I don't really hear him, like I know he's talking to me but I don't really give a fuck that he's talking to me, and he's asking me for a cigarette, I was holding my pack in my hand.  Deep in thought with my own shit I don't even respond, as he walks past me and realizes I'm not even going to say no he calls me a asshole, it takes a moment for me to realize this and then I think to myself how the fuck can he call a complete stranger an asshole, how can he call a complete stranger an asshole when he has no idea what that stranger would do to him, how can he tell a complete stranger he's an asshole not knowing if that that person is not having a falling down day, then I think how fucking lucky am I?

So I turn and I say did you just call me an asshole?  He says with pride yes, so after I throw a bunch of Mother Fuckers his way I realize he's not going to jump and I start to turn around and walk away, when my back is to him he says fuck you or something like that, that's what I was looking for and I turn back around, open my arms wide with the proverbial "WHAT" and start to walk towards him, for a moment I think he thinks I'm just going to take a few steps and stop but as I get closer another "WHAT" comes out of my mouth and when I'm close enough to see my eyes he decides its time to turn and run, I didn't give chase.

See there's no accountability in the world today, people don't think shit will happen, they don't realize there could be lunatic your standing behind breathing down his neck and is looking for a reason.

Yellow cab drivers don't think you'll chase them up 3rd ave until you catch them, I mean what the fuck is wrong with people.

All right I'm happy 2008 is over, not the greatest year for me, the end of the year was ok but the first 10 months sucked shit.  Got sick twice in 2008, landed in the hospital for 3 days for the first time ever in my life, got stricken with Bells Palsy couple of months after that.  Here's some photos of me getting acupuncture for it

Ok here there sucking blood out of my leg, wicked shit

These are just some needles in my leg, and you can see the results of the blood sucking

These are some needles in my hand.

The getting sick interrupted the finishing of some tattoos, I think I'm well enough to start again soon, need to finish the one arm, getting the upper inside and upper back of my left arm done, wicked painful shit, Ill get some pics of it and put em up, all wicked evil shit, but would we have it any other way.

Do we ever get tired of Asian School Girls?

The answer is always no

Complaints? Go tell someone who gives a fuck.