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If you are here to Talk Shit then I refer you there and remember that I really don't give a fuck. |
Also remember this and this is very very important, if you
can't be with the one you love, then tie up the one your with.
Master Dark
Psychopaths cannot be understood in terms of antisocial rearing or
development. They are simply morally depraved individuals who
represent the "monsters" in our society. They are unstoppable and
untreatable predators whose violence is planned, purposeful and
emotionless. The violence continues until it reaches a plateau at
age 50 or so, then tapers off.
"1 in 25 ordinary Americans secretly has no conscience and can do
anything at all without feeling guilty. Who is the devil
you know" Martha Stout
06/28/03 11:12 AM
Saturday, usualy Sniper day for me, I will see what I am going to do, my fucking desk is a mess and I need to organize it, shit my office is a mess and I need to fix it or it will become a junk room and can't have that.
The heat forced me to get 2 more air conditioners, I am a polar bear I swear, a little cooler here today but I can't stand the fucking heat, the rain is coming back though so I'm happy.
06/26/03 10:39 PM
OK it has been real fucking hot here, today we broke a 100, it has been a 3 shower day and I can see 2 more before I head to sleep.
Ok I am also becoming a bit obsessed with Trinity, I have added some more pics to my Trinity devotion page, yeah I know I am pathetic but she is one bad bitch.
OK besides the hot weather I am feeling very excited about certain things, I need to start walking with my micro recorder cause I think of shit I want to write and then forget but we are living in exciting times don't forget that.
06/25/03 10:23 AM
Find myself still on the fringe at the moment, confusion sets in, dangerous times. The numbness has set in big time, I like the numbness.
06/23/03 11:26 AM
So it stopped raining.
In a sort of funky mood today, things always change. I am numb once again, retreating inward with the constant battle between my mind and soul, the numbness will give way to who knows what, the one thing that is perfectly clear at this moment is where my destiny lies and how I must get there. Will you come along with me?
06/21/03 12:31 PM
Did I mention that its still raining. But they are predicting hot hot weather here in the coming days so I guess all good things must come to a end.
Headed out, the sniper is on the loose.
06/21/03 3:34 AM
I just wanted to say quickly that I am glad I am not using drugs and drinking anymore, and not because of the chemical concoctions that put me into oblivion and caused mass hysteria in my life, no because now in my wonderful city you can't fucking smoke in bars, I mean what would be the fucking point.
06/19/03 3:05 PM
What the fuck now, well I have received some disturbing news from the medical professionals and when I know more I will tell you all, until then fuck it all
06/18/03 8:41 AM
Raining here again and its about 64 degrees, its June, I love it I really do love it. And more rain is expected tomorrow and then day after next. I know this seems to preoccupy me but this is so weird that the rain is like this, it has not stopped, I do think this is a sign how fucked the earth is.
06/16/03 9:02 AM
I hate Mondays I really do. Decent weekend for the most part, it rained Friday and Saturday, I love it and the rain is coming back, I do believe that the weather patterns have shifted. Still not fully awake yet, got some good perv shots over the weekend also.
Oh yeah, I went looking for my protestor friend, I haven't been there in a but on Saturday afternoon because they are weekend warriors but there was another rally going on and got some pics, I behaved myself and did not engage in any real conversation with anyone about it. Got some pics of that also will post if any are worth it.
06/15/03 11:19 AM
I am the sickest motherfucker I know. Nuff said
06/12/03 12:44 PM
I am in some kind of mood today, sort of somber.
My current emotional state is one of confusion and some doubt, its a strange place to be in and one I am to familiar with, the wide range of feelings that are coursing through me can lead me to turn everything off.
06/12/03 12:33 AM
Wow its been a few days, I have not felt like writing and so fucking what.
Things are about to go boom in the night one more time and change, this is a change that most would consider major and I feel the change is life and death, my life.
I am yet once again enjoying myself and it feels right, I really am me again, there is also so many things I want to shout at the world but all in due time because now is not the time, in that sense I am like a earthquake inside and soon will be exploding.
Onto Extreme News, we will be making a snuff film more details coming
Here is the protestor I had a fight with, white guy glasses far left
06/07/03 7:03 PM
Bored, wanted to get of here earlier but got lazy, I need to write and have no inspiration here, I am going to sit somewhere and try to get motivated,
06/07/03 1:02 PM
It's raining again here, I fucking love it I really do, I have seen it like this here.
I think it is time to start the church of Extreme Disorder
06/06/03 11:29 PM
I am home early this evening, I can say that the numbness has set in, it was expected until certain things resolve themselves, I am feeling quite well though, like myself as have stated and it is amazing how quickly I have readjusted to it, I know I have not been exactly completely forthcoming in these writings but is for me not you and you know very my attitude by now is simply fuck you.
06/06/03 8:46 AM
It is not raining today, very disappointed.
The virtues and morals that society places on its citizens are so full of shit, handed down from generation to generation, making you believe the things you believe in are yours, you were not born with those ideas they were implanted in you, from your parents, movies, school, etc, etc, where the fuck did they get them from and who the fuck said they were ever right.
Here's the life little girl, your going to grow up get married and have a family and until you do that you are not a women.
Here's your life little boy, you will grow up, get a job, find a women, marry her and have children. Until you do that you are not a man.
So here is little Jane and Johnny married with children miserable hating each other as each day passes.
Fuck that motherfuckin shit.
Now here's the thing if that's what you want, and that's really what you then by all fucking means go for it, if that's not what you want then don't let them make that what you want.
People refer to me as selfish all the time because that's not what I want, I say those that have children are selfish because there sole reasons for wanting them are to have one, to make them happy, it will make me happy to be a mother, father whatever. Parents ask me all the time, when are you going to have children, NEVER, see they just want shared misery in my eyes.
Now onto me, see I am the bad guy because I choose in this life to feed my pleasures, to want to run through life tasting it, touching it, smelling it, when I am not feeding my pleasures I am miserable, when I am not enjoying what is I am dead. I will not let the dogma of society dictate to me what my life should be like.
The world is a different place than it was twenty years ago, hedonism is on the rise, what does my and the generations have to look forward to? Nothing so I say let us taste life.
06/05/03 9:35 AM
Still raining, I tell you I am overwhelmed with joy at this fact, while most in my city are pissed because it has not stopped and no end in sight, tomorrow supposed to be a bit sunny but then the weekend again rain, yeah.
OK down to business, today I feel better, only because things have cleared for me, they are still fucked but they are clear for me but in the same breath I feel alive, I MEAN FUCKING ALIVE and I am happy, I only feel alive when I am dead, the confusion is gone and just my old familiar Chaos, Mayhem, Destruction, Lunacy and the like.
A mad scientists is at the controls and he is on a forever acid trip because this shit is funny, I am a player in the divine comedic tragedy that is know as the universe and I don't give a fuck.
06/04/03 11:47 AM
Wow, today is fucked, the only good thing is it's still raining.
I have a feeling that things have gone dreadfully wrong, the feeling of impending doom lurks over my head like a dark rain cloud, maybe its not really raining here maybe its only raining in my head, no I'm not that crazy.
Every once in a while my worlds collide, when they do its never nice, I am ready to run to disappear from this life, who would go with me, go to some Eastern European country and become international criminals, sounds good at least doesn't it.
Fuck all this.
06/03/03 8:35 AM
I saw a old friend last night, been so long since I've seen him, why at this time in my life, many things are changing, about to change, I may be covering similar topics these days, head is somewhat scrambled.
06/02/03 8:59 AM
On my way into work I was thinking about suicide, now I am suicidal and for those of you that aren't it simply means that no matter is happening that can be the first thought, like I can always check out, and most of you dumb fucks don't understand that it is normal for someone like me to think like that, and maybe even at some point actually do it, but that's not the point, the point is its not like anything any one can say that can set me off. I was talking with someone yesterday about it in the sense that we hate when people know this because they want to act all careful around us, like we are fragile little flowers or some shit ready to break, on the contrary we are probably stronger because we know the fucking truth, that this shit sucks and it isn't going to get any better but we hang in there, not in the hopes that it will get better but more in the joy that if it gets worse there is a way out.
Some will say this is the cowardly way out, now I don't believe in any religious doctrine like I am going to purgatory if I check out, and if I did so fucking what, what difference does it make, in fact purgatory, if there is one might be the place I have always been looking for, like when it is depicted in film I am thinking, now that's a cool fucking place, but as far as being a coward, I don't know, what the fuck do I know
06/02/03 12:40 AM
I have been meaning to write about something I think 6 Feet Under is a great show.
Now that I have gotten that out of the way, this life is funny, I want to thank that person that I was talking to, you know who you are, it was a help to get those things out and make me see more clearly than I already was. One thing I have learned on my years lurking the earth is that never ever ever be surprised at what happens in this life, it has a funny way of doing what it wants and the only proper response is to roll with it.
I spent the day fixing my torture room or what ever you want to call it, my sanctuary, it is almost complete maybe some small modifications but its I think where I want it to be, maybe some more obscure paint or something but I think I am there.
05/31/03 11:20 AM
I had a very interesting and very enjoyable evening and morning, I set off for a little while to the city and winded up staying the night. It was raining again here today, I tell you I love the rain and hope it stays for a bit more like it has been. Shit happens in life and you can not go through it with regrets, some words from Metalica
No remorse No repent
We don't care what it meant
Another day Another death
Another sorrow Another breath
I didn't finish this entry last night, I feel asleep, no not here at the keyboard.
One other thing, Eric Robert Rudolph was captured yesterday, longtime fugitive on the FBI's most wanted list, I don't know his politics and probably would not agree with them but he was a embarrassment to the FBI and that is why I cheered him on, so much of a embarrassment you probably didn't even know his name.
One other note, Prague is looking good again to me, maybe I will eventually move there who knows, I think I am going there again soon. I have to see where I am going on vacation.
05/30/03 11:35 AM
After a bit of sleep and I mean a bit, things look a little better than my last entry.
You can only deny what you are for so long and then something happens, a glitch in the Matrix so to speak and then nothing is real anymore.
It is also very possible to at one moment to have elation and devastation, to be excited and yet have darkness surround you, and not the darkness that I live for.
I have felt as a prisoner, I feel that I have been pardoned at the moment but I know what waits, what always waits, chaos, destruction and mayhem so what the fuck is the difference anyway, my excitement I can not share, I must conceal it and solely for the reason of it will not last.
I feel old urges creep over me, urges I have not felt in quite some time, ugly violent urges, wanting to bash my head against the wall kind of urges, a return of the old.
Well I can't wait to see what the evening brings, and to borrow some more words
"It is within the experience of everyone that when pleasure and pain reach a certain intensity they are indistinguishable."
05/30/03 12:20 AM
I hate my fucking life sometimes and this is for sure one of them. I am in great emotional pain at the moment, and considering that only 24 hours ago it was possibly, not it was one of the best days I have had in who knows how long, but such is my life in a blink it all changes, the cosmic gods playing yet there tricks once again.
Oh on another note, see how fucking shallow I am, received some terrific and I mean terrific hardcore Japanese bondage CD's today.
To borrow some words from Korn
All I want in life is to be happy (happy)
It seems funny to me How fucked things can be
Everytime I get ahead
I feel more dead
Yeah that's exactly how I fucking feel and to go even further lets borrow some more words
FALLING AWAY FROM ME
Hey, I'm feeling tired
My time, is gone today
You flirt with suicide
Sometimes, that's ok
Hear what others say
I'm here, standing hollow
Falling away from me
Falling away from me Day,
is here fading
That's when, I'm insane
I flirt with suicide
Sometimes kill the pain
I can always say
'It's gonna be better tomorrow'
Falling away from me
Falling away from me
Beating me down
Beating me, beating me
Down, down
Into the ground
Screaming some sound
Beating me, beating me Down,
down Into the ground
(falling away from me)
It's spinning round and round
(falling away from me)
It's lost and can't be found
(falling away from me)
It's spinning round and round
(falling away from me)
So down
Beating me down
Beating me, beating me Down,
down Into the ground
Screaming some sound
Beating me, beating me Down,
down Into the ground
Pressing me,
they won't go away
So I pray,
go away
It's falling away from me
Beating me down
Beating me, beating me Down,
down Into the ground
Screaming some sound
Beating me, beating me Down,
down Into the ground
Now that's really how I fucking feel if your still with me at this point, More to the point I feel like a prisoner and I must break free what ever the cost, whatever the fucking cost because I am dying and my will to live must be stronger.
I will do things that will make you say, "what the fuck" and I do not do them with intention I do them because I am me and that is who I am, will I ever sleep again, I don't know, would it matter if the great comics of the universe took me right now, no but the cocksuckers won't because who would amuse them.
05/26/03 2:46 AM
Finally did que today, Got some cool pics hope they came out I will let you know.
I meant to right about something, life is fucking funny that is my final assessment of it, I really do think that what ever is controlling the universe really doesn't know what the fuck it is doing sometimes and if it does than it has a sicker sense of humor than me and that is why I cant wait till I die to find out what demented little midget is running things.
05/24/03 11:04 AM
Another lovely rainy day here in my great city.
Supposed to barbeque today but everyone is afraid of the weather, nothing better than being in the woods in a rain storm. So it will leave me time to do some things in the house that I need to do, some modifications you could say.
I added some pics in the Yahoo group be sure to check them out, I'm still working on the new changes to the site, some modifications to some pages and new stuff don't worry I haven't forgotten.
05/22/03 11:34 AM
Interesting day and developments in my life, no I'm not telling what.
The hang ups that society instills in its citizens is real, religious doctrine and the bullshit that it implies is a huge form of control, if you don't think the Matrix is real then you are blind and need to be unplugged, it is possible it is to late for you, where are the rest of you, the fucking moral hypocrites that make the so called rules are the biggest breakers of them all, ask yourself how you came into your morals? Did you really make them for yourself or were they given to you?
Why are your deepest desires wrong? Are they wrong or was it told they were wrong and by who.
By the way couldn't get any shots last night.
05/21/03 9:46 AM
Another lovely rainy day here in my wonderful city, I can only hope this weather lasts throughout the summer here, that would be lovely.
I added some pics in the Yahoo Group so do be sure to stop by there.
Headed into the city tonight after work and have camera in hand, I am actually going there for some dark business but will take advantage of the opportunity to get some snaps.
I want to reaffirm that Trinity is one bad bitch.
05/18/03 11:25 AM
Spent the day and night roaming and lurking but that's not what I want to talk about.
Just wanted to say this first Trinity is one bad bitch.
Was hanging a bit around Union Square yesterday, now you can always find allot of shit going on there but lately there is a group of protestors always there, protesting to free Palestine, now I don't begrudge anyone there right to free speech in this wonderful country of ours, that is our right. But as I watching them I felt compelled to go and ask them a question, were any of them in Palestine and after the run around one of them tells me no he was not ever there and I said if you feel so strongly about Palestine being freed than why not go over there.
Now he is wearing a no war but peace button and I tell you the aggression that came out of him was funny, I thought he was going to take a swing which I find ironic because he is screaming and cruising at me how they are peace loving people. So I say because this is what I was thinking that at least John Walker Lind went overseas and joined a fight that he believed in instead of standing safely on a corner thousands of miles away talking shit, the motherfucker didn't even know who Lind was which again I find funny, anyway the motherfucker calls me a terrorist and I tell you that set me off and I really started going off on him and he then says he is only expressing his opinion.
See this is the problem, cause and effect, people think they can throw whatever they want out into the universe and that's that, wrong cause see granted he was only expressing his opinion and he had that right, the same right I had to express mine back at him, self centeredness runs rampant amongst people.
I think I will stop by every week and say hi to him now.
05/17/03 9:36 AM
Headed out to my wonderful city, the sniper is on the loose with camera in hand
05/16/03 9:26 AM
I can say that today is slightly better than yesterday, I am not ready to up and vanish today, maybe I am ready to vanish those around me, why is it that some people, most people just can't fucking leave well enough alone, here's a basic principle to live by, MIND YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS, anyway its Friday, I walked into work and as usual I can't get my coat off with out being disturbed, I guess common sense isn't so common.
I have to get this off my chest, the Mayor of my city is a fucking asshole and the Governor of my state is right behind him, my city is headed for dark days and these fucking assholes are doing nothing to stop it like a runaway train.
05/15/03 8:59 AM
Wow been almost 2 weeks I didn't realize, but do I really give a fuck anyway?
The Matrix is out, I will of course wait about a month to see it, I can't take the packed theaters and all the fucking noise so I will wait but I am very excited. I think I am going to see a little indy flick called better luck tomorrow this weekend.
Have some cool shots that I will probably upload to the group, maybe here maybe I will create like a Pic section of my travels in and around my wonderful city.
Now on to inner workings.
You ever get those feelings inside that something is about to shift? Ahh like a glitch in the Matrix, hahahaha, anyway there is a glitch in dark's world, maybe I will up and move to fucking Thailand or some other obscure place where its anything goes and no fucking feelings, I mean I just get so fucking tired of the shit around me at times and sometimes its peoples attitudes and there shit, why can't some people understand that some of us are a bit warped and twisted and leave it at that?
05/03/02 12:56AM
Got myself a great wide angle lens today so more picture fun on the way.
Saw a decent, very decent indy film also today, City Of God, I much rather prefer indy films than any others, anyway if you can check it out, hope you like sub titles.
Other than that bored home on a Saturday night, hell you know what that means maybe Ill go looking for some perverts, you know I'm bored when I do that.
04/28/03 10:35 PM
Finally got myself DSL at home and wondering why I did not do it so long ago, but that's me
04/22/03 3:25 PM
I am really fucking pissed today, some people doesn't matter what you do for them they just don't recognize what it is you are trying to do, it doesn't fucking pay.
On another note;
I am constantly reminded of certain moments in my life, just a handful where in that moment life was good, at least I have that, in 36 years I mean there are very few memories that are pleasant and in those moments I did not feel empty which by the way I normally do, anyway I will keep these moments to myself, you don't deserve them and being there is but a few I don't wish to loose them. I will give just a hint, one of you know what they are and in fact you were there every time they took place
04/19/03 11:00 AM
Working on some changes to the site, you should see them in a couple of days hopefully, don't want you to think I forgot about you.
I think I am headed out with camera in hand to see what I can find. There was something else I wanted to tell you guys but have since forgot, must have not been important.
04/17/03 12:19 AM
Well we experienced our first problem with the new host, I don't think there will be anymore they just dropped the ball and that's it, they forgot to register the domain, more like they told me I didn't have to that they would take care of it and they couldn't being I switched from one to another, no problem but that's why I hate tech support motherfuckers, never call tech support they don't know what they are doing, I work in IT, no not at a help desk thank god and whenever I am in the need for tech support all they do is fuck up shit more than it was before so call your geek friend when your shit is about to blow up and see if they don't know better than the dumb tech support motherfuckers.
Well the war is over and now I'm bored, back to PS2 and think I am going to start Ghost recon.
04/07/03 5:32 PM
I love living in the North East, we are having another major snow storm, its April 7th and we have a big snow
04/07/03 12:47 PM
Now I don't mean to bring politics into this and maybe no one cares, we all know the war is going on and I want share something the Iraqi Information Minister has said today, now you must understand that American troops are in Baghdad fighting even as I am writing this and this is the Information Ministries comments about the events today
BAGHDAD, Iraq - With U.S. tanks rolling into central Baghdad, Iraq s information minister denied in a rooftop news conference Monday that the Americans were in the city, declaring: "Be assured Baghdad is safe, secure and great."
"They are sick in their minds. They say they brought 65 tanks into center of city. I say to you this talk is not true. This is part of their sick mind," Mohammed Saeed al-Sahhaf said. "There is no presence of American infidels in the city of Baghdad at all."
Sahhaf, speaking outside the Palestine Hotel to a crowd of foreign reporters, said amid sirens and clouds of dust that Saddam Hussein's forces had given invading coalition forces "poison and bitterness."
"Their forces committed suicide by the hundreds. ... The battle is very fierce and God made us victorious. The fighting continues," he said. "Yesterday, we slaughtered them and we will continue to slaughter them."
Sahhaf said coalition forces pushed one of the armored carriers and tanks into the city and "we killed most of them and we will get of rid of them soon. Baghdad will be their graveyard."
Now this is comical, every Iraqi can see the troops, they can hear the fighting, its is the equivalent of our Government telling us the Towers are still standing
04/06/11:52 PM
Well its that time of year again, who knows the exact date I don't know, all the reports give so many different dates, for sure his body was found on the 8th, does it really matter, no it doesn't he's still gone and that's that, so another year has gone by, I miss his music.
I can not be selfish, listen closely to his music and you can hear the pain he was in, I can certainly understand and if he felt that was the only way than so be it, I think the world does not understand our generation (Kurt's which I am included in and the generation after) all the good times gone, the lies no longer believed, the wrenching deep inside our soul, our pain created by them, our way of dealing with it, the American lie dead, the white house and picket fence ha, the plastic ness gone, we our in your face with what went wrong, we are left to fix everything and we don't want to, Kurt may have had the right idea and I am not advocating anyone doing it, all I am saying is I understand.
Miss you Kurt
04/05/03 11:35 AM
Well I am in a slightly better mood than the last entry but honestly not by much, the weather here this week has been wonderful though, dark and damp just the way I like it.
Have to go out and take care of some things, going to take the camera with me and hope I find some cool shots, when I leave it home I see some good stuff, when I take it with me nothing but isn't that the way life is.
I want to say we have been having some visitors from the middle east and that is very cool I hope they keep coming here.
As far as the visitors that are pissing me off, well they know who they are but more important I know who they are and I want to let them know also I know who there dial up is and where they are coming from exactly, see if you were to meet me in real time there would be no doubt the kind of person I am, everyone knows, first I am a asshole, but were all assholes to some degree I just know it, second I wear on my flesh exactly what I am, plenty of tattoos depicting my life you could say so I wonder when people I know happen across this site why they feel compelled to run and tell others, like they are telling them something they don't know, hahahahaha. Well you know my attitude by now, Fuck you Fuck you and wait just in case you didn't hear me the first time FUCK YOU.
OK I need to go wash my ass and get outside
03/31/03 12:47 PM
Today is not a good fucking day for me, today is one of those days that suicide looks very attractive, I got very bad news regarding my government case, and on top of that the people in my life insist of driving me crazy, I believe I have come to the resolve that I need not be in any kind of relationship, I would be best on some desert island with a satellite, laptop and generator, I am a cave man.
When I finally put the bullet in my head, or hang myself I want you to understand that I could take no more, is this what the rest of this life is going to be like? Then I must check out if that is the case, today I am need of a break or some good news
03/25/03 11:46 Pm
Well the war is on, I am glued to CNN I must admit but will not get into my political views here but I will say this and only this, I will not forget the fear I had felt on 9/12 and I do believe that saddam is in some connected to that.
Found a interesting web site a
supposed Iraqi blog, I am wondering if he is not a spy for us,
I mean I am one of government conspiracies and all believe me and I don't for a
minute believe everything that is told by them but its late here and I have been
without sleep, damn CNN
03/22/03 8:50 AM Well
the war is on and I've been obsessed with CNN and once I finish making this
small entry where do you think I am going? Well I
will express my final jubilation at the fact that I am done with the switch over
and added some pages, there will be some major changes coming here very soon but
I am just quite satisfied that you all are no longer getting shut out due to
bandwidth problems, broken links because of the band aids I was using to get all
the pics up and that's that. Now back to the war
live on CNN
03/19/03 4:21 PM
Man I am so happy I finally switched hosts you have no idea, I am really excited about the move and glad its like 99% done, were going to have some fun now.
On the eve of destruction, the deadline is set for tonight, well Ill get to watch 24 hour coverage on CNN about the war, kind of brings me back to 91.
Going to start playing GTA 3, yeah I go backwards I know but so
fucking what.
03/17/03 9:27PM
Well its almost all done, man this was allot of work , well one new years resolution out of the way
03/12/03 12:00PM
I am tired of fixing the site, I will find hosting today or tomorrow, please bear with me.
03/10/03 9:37 AM
Light Angels fixed, Cartoons fixed, next will be the babe of the day.
03/09/03 5:55PM
Sic shit section fixed
03/09/03 10:23 PM
Bondage section fixed
Also just finished watching 8 mile, outstanding
03/09/03 1:28 PM
Hi,
I am working on fixing the broken links to many of our pics, I lost a important file and
finally getting it back together so please bear with me, it make take a couple of days, I am aware and working on it.
03/08/03 11:51 AM
Ok Been fucking up not taking care of the site, back on the case sorry about that
02/17/03 1:51pm
Still stuck in vice city, game is to cool
Snowing like a motherfucker here, its wonderful trapped inside my house today so it will be another vice city day.
02/07/03 11:00am
Well as far as Extreme Disorder goes finding plenty of sic pics.
Playing Vice City PS2, very cool game.
02/09/03 12:54pm
The game has got me hooked, I have now killed a major drug dealer and taken over his operation and home, very cool.
01/31/03 12:22am
Well today is my birthday, not gonna tell you how old I am ask and I will tell you Dark
01/28/03 10:01am
Updated the sic shit section with pic of a sheep getting fucked, you must see this it is to cool.
01/23/03 9:31am
OK here first the weather, its cold but I do enjoy it but I mean cold. OK on to Extreme things
Have been getting some cool pics for the bondage and sic shit section, I do really need to find a host though running out of space at a alarming rate and will be forced to use
angelfire's upgrade for the time being, I have many band aids keeping the files here lol.
After I left you all the other day I went for a walk in the woods near my home, got some good dark pics I hope and I will show you were Mischief is
buried.
If your in the North East stay warm.
01/20/03 11:30am
Blah blah blah, that is kind of my feel these days.
It takes me a little bit to set into the new year, no I do not believe in New Years resolutions but do believe in things I want to accomplish this year, for that matter every year. I have a few, I must finish the 3 books I have in progress, some technology stuff I don't want to get into here, more travel of course and knock off my list of places I want to go to, its a toss up this year between, Spain Greece and Turkey of Amsterdam and Turkey, been to Amsterdam but must get back again and I must get back to Ireland and then eventually Scotland. Get the gov off my back once and for all, find a host for this site so I don't have to deal with bandwidth limits and disk space and maybe open a business and get back into photography.
You know I don't much listen to his music but I do respect him, Eminem, I was watching the video from the 8 mile soundtrack, the end of the vid when he says you can do anything you set your mind to I have always believed that, we are defeated in our thinking and nothing else, what seems impossible is the most possible and what seems possible most of the times isn't what I think it will be.
Point being live your fucking life like today is the last day, there are no tomorrow's, recognize your second chances and make the most of them, have as little regret as possible, find the glory in all your defeats so you can taste better your victories, don't just talk shit but do it, take a chance in this life and I say that as much to you and to always remind myself the same things.
Started to post some pics of my trip in the yahoo group, so many more roles to develop, got the camera bug again so I will be out there looking for some sick shit in and around my wonderful city.
Also remember this and this is very very important, if you can't be with the one you love, then tie up the one your with.
Master Dark
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