Extreme Disorder's Lookn4drkness, Elysium

Elysium

I have the privilege of your presence in this here empyrean dream.

Foreshadows in my dreams of what you shall be in my life unrest my inconstant state of mind.

Confined to your voices' embrace I descend into the depths of wishful thinking of being with you.

Wondering what it would be like to lay by your side contemplating your uxorious face.

Please me with one of those sensual, lusty looks that you are capable of.

In awe I gaze into your abysmal eyes,

in return you offer placid smiles from your adorable face.

Release me of this vapor world; set me free of your gestic grasp.

I'm ready to accept your darkness,

give it to the one who searches the worlds distant realms for you,

Breathless impatience….

I want to explore that realm within.

Share it with me.

Darkness in control.

Lunacy, dementia, and amnesia I beg thee please rear your ugly faces and help me forget him.

Come and implant yourselves in me.

Multiples claim my mind and control my soul, I rarely venture out of the gloom that consumes me.

I've become immersed in this insanity.

These esoteric feelings I need to satiate,

all of them with you.

All I want, you have.

All the expectations of mine have fallen on the ground, dispersed,

laying there with no one to pick them up

and set them at rest.

Plentiful showers of unfulfilled hopes.

I'm unwilling to accept affection from those whom I do not desire.

Can't bear the thought of smiling upon anyone who isn't you.

Eternally comparing everyone that I meet to your stature (believe me no one measures up to your grandeur)

none but yourself could be your parallel.

Forgive me for sounding repetitive but I'm trying to get the point inside you where it's bound to matter.

I'm drawn to your mysterious eyes because your someone I can't figure out,

that in itself challenges me in ways that attract me even more to you.

You are a conscious part of my daily sub life.

How could it be possible for me to feel this way about you without ever having stood before you.

Perturbations swirl around inside, spewing out and screaming in your face, have me.

Take me for what I am a human being who wants you.

You have been offered a choice: very simple for you to pick either solution but terrifying for me,

for I might endure your rejection.

Now tell me this, what will you decide,

will you choice entail dismissing me like you do many others;

will you use me like other you have used;

or will you give a single thought to my request?

(I will never know, will I?)

Who will be standing along side you when time takes its toll on your physical body?

The only one left to care for you will be me.

Please allow me to consummate my goals of having your caliginous interior.

This lifetime of tedium, has gnawed away at hope and left nothing to look forward to.

My story unanswered, sans reply, like a dark comedy where the scene abruptly ends, with no clear ending

(Frustration builds).

Everything aside,

Elysium I will find when finally together we might be.

I convince myself that I see clearly when in reality I am probably deceived.

Interfering sentiments disrupt my thinking, but never do I forget thee!