Now what do you want to know about me you want insight to the sick and twisted individual that I am? Or maybe you are a sick ass mother fucker like me and if you are please email me your madness.

Now where should I start? Ok I was born on a cold winter day, the place I was born is said to have strange energy in its surroundings, it could explain why I am compelled to return to this site again and again, it could also explain why I choose to live where I do now and if you dig far enough you can figure this out. I will say only this, they are both famous in their own right, famous in my region and for two completely different reasons, they both own a certain quality and to most it is a frightening energy that they feel from these places and though they are different they both have drawn crowds for the same reasons. Now the latter could either be the first or the last depending how you looked at it and the first, if you are from my region you should have visited if you are like me, and is claimed to be saintly.

Do you know where I am?

Now its possible you think that as a child maybe I was cruel and punished animals or some crazy shit like that right? Wrong I always drew great pleasure from giving pain to humans and making then realize the sick monster I really am and then they would never again look at me the same which was fine by me. I learned from a early age that I could put fear into people and one of my greatest assets was that I may have appeared like an angel to them. Now remember if you believe the story about God and the Devil that the Devil was and is an Angel.

Doe he look like an Angel capable of anything wrong?

Yes that's me and no I didn't eat the snake. Anyway where was I. As a child I certainly knew I was disturbed in a way most other kids weren't and if you saw the shit that was going on in my house you would have been a little twisted also and its not to say anything horrible happened to me but bad shit happened to those around me and that's is where I learned to disappear and hide and that is where I learned one of the most important lessons of my life that I could only really count on myself. I also realized how lonely my life would be and that it was always this way and always would be this way.

At the time I became teenager I felt completely alien and isolated and then my life took off when I found other aliens but always I felt the pain and misery of being human. I of course was perceived by every around me as a lunatic.

Do I look crazy?

Now I must start by saying that being a dark soul or living a strange life does not make you a evil person and furthermore being a dark one isn't simply dressing in black and rebelling against society no it is so much more and if you are at this point asking yourself am I am dark person then you are not and it is as simple as that. Some may confuse dark as evil and though the two can be connected you don't have to be an evil one to be a dark one.
Am I an evil motherfucker? Well that all depends on who you ask. Some will tell you I am the devil. Am I an asshole? You can find many to agree with this and it is possible that I am but I am me and I have always been me and will always be me and if you don't understand that then keep moving is all I can tell you.
And while we are at it let me just remind you that I am capable of anything and never and I mean never ever be surprised by anything that I do because if you think I cant than trust I can.
Now back to my life, you can say I was brought up in a unconventional way and my values and morals are certainly different that most but the point is that they are my values and morals, my likes and dislikes and I don't give a fuck what you think of them and in the famous words of the man who at times describes best how I feel Jon Davis (and if you don't know who that is GET THE FUCK OFF OF MY SITE NOW) "Fuck you, I'm fed up with you, I'm not as good as you, fuck no I'm better than you"
Now understand this about my sense of humor, it is as strange as me and through all the tragedy of my life I have developed a very sic twisted sense of humor able to laugh the most disturbing events that can happen in the course of ones day and quite honestly it is the only reason I have not gone insane though again some will tell you that I am completely mad and they may be right and then again they may be wrong.

Cat anyone?

Again I will tell you that being considered dark is more than just acting the part because anyone can do that it is something inside you, that inner gnawing that eats away deep at your soul because you can't put your finger on it to scratch and ease the pain and yes there is deep pain inside my soul, it is unexplainable and very mysterious and everyone feels this about you not that they look at you like a freak, no when you encounter a dark soul you do not look at this person with disgust but more with a type of fear and well you should but you are to ignorant to even realize what and why you feel this fear and guess what I'm not gonna tell you why ha.
And for all those who hate me, good you should and I have no hate for you but discontent with the fact that you are allowed to touch the same earth that I do, and don't forget my friend Jon Davis.
What do you really need to know about me you may be wondering and then again maybe not maybe you don't give a fuck and I really don't care of you do or don't. My life thus far has been a wild ride to say the least and I have many adventures and usually in every moment I am on another. I certainly made many mistakes in this life and I am sure that more are to come but what the fuck I say.

One big happy family

Now I guess the most constant theme in my life has of course been the misery and pain in my soul, the torture that existed and exists in my life. The loneliness that seemed to follow wherever I went. Well to you it might be loneliness and to me it is comfort and not loneliness but solitude.

Another blast from the past.
I had to share this with you, I just came across this and thought you would like it.

Here I am today

I want also to share with you something about the kind of natured friend I am. You should hope that you never need a friend like me. If I take you into that special place and call you friend you don't realize what you have been given. I hope you never have to realize the depth of that friendship for if you do than that means you have gotten yourself in a world of shit.

And from Trainspotting,

"Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit- crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?"