I guess I should start from when I was a child and my first introduction to music was classical. I had a teacher who insisted that we get some culture and she played Mozart and the great composers and I must say she hooked me from the start and till this day I would say that Mozart would still be the music of choice for me. From classical music everything else was born. One of my favorite
pieces from Mozart is Reqreium. Now today I still listen to classical and have added many others since then and of my current favorites is Gregorian chants.
Of course I had my introduction to Heavy Metal and it was of course the single greatest band ever born, LED ZEPPELIN and I don't give a fuck what anyone says about that and while were on it lets be clear about one thing Jimmy Page is the greatest guitar player ever to live.
Now that we have gotten that out of the way we can move on to what influenced me and of course the 80's was were it all started. Now I
wasn't no big hair glam band listening faggot. You know whenever I see one of those VH1 or MTV
specials about 80's music they always leave the real shit out and just focus on little girl bands. There is a reason why those bands went away, they were fucking teen idol bands and there little child fans grew up and then
teen idols go where all teen idols go, to the land of where are they now and music TV specials and you know what I say good riddance and I hope they never fucking come back.
The 80's supplies me with many memories, many first's and of course the introduction to music as I know it today. God the bands are numerous and I think I have forgotten as many as I remember. My first concert was David Bowie in the very famous Madison Square Garden, it was in 1984 I believe, much of these times were spent in a chemical blur to be honest all I remember is it was a big deal because it was his return. I must say I was blown away and
finally for the first time felt so home amongst the other freaks. Some of my pain and misery was lost for an evening and I had felt a sense of comfort and safety. From here of course I tried to replicate this event almost night after night and even found
solace in a local club called the left bank. So of course at this time I was very punk and looked the part but for the life of me I cant find a pic. I changed identities and looks very often at this time in my life.
Back to the music. I of course was big into "real" metal at the time and my mission was to convince my
friends Metallica was a force to reckon with, Kill Em All was our battle cry and it was in my opinion a
masterpiece that to this day stands tall amongst metal forever, The Four Horseman being perhaps one of my favorite tracks ever put on vinyl. The whole album was track after track and yes I know some of you will say Dave Mustang made these tracks but if you could his play on a demo you would see he was not a fitting part of the band. Then of course Ride The Lighting and one of the songs that touched my heart Fade To Black and expressed the misery in my soul, but this is not a
Metallica tribute page, there was Slayer, Venom, Loudness, Metal Church, Mercyful Fate all the cool new wave shit also the came the 90's and the so called grunge era.
Of course Nirvana was the real band from the time and the shit they were writing about was very cool. 80's heavy metal and the 70's based on a large part of fantasy but this new breed of music was based on real feelings and emotions real experiences, shit why am I telling you this you should already know and if you don't then you need to go get your hands on some real music and may I suggest to start with Nirvana and Tool cause in my opinion they are the two bands that started it all. I remember when first hearing Nirvana and thinking this is the warrior that will kill the big hair. I will miss Kurt till the end but his influence will remain in music for years to come.
From then we had so many bands to hit the mark, in the late 90's and the turn of the century we had Limp Bizkit and the album Significant Other was a great work of pain and misery particularly the track re-arranged but let me tell you that the group that hit me the absolute hardest was Korn. The lyrics hit home to me in a way that nothing has yet I mean the track daddy might be the most painful human emotion I have heard that was laid down. I applaud Jon and his crew for letting us feel their real emotion. The whole album touched me pick a track doesn't matter which one, I can feel and identify with than anger Korn puts out, you can say it soothes my soul. Jon Davis has given us a close-up view of the pain that lurks in many of us and I must pay tribute to him, thank you Jon.
Let me not leave out Slipknot, their madness and sicness are unsurpassed, to some yes they are just speeded up band but listen close to the lyrics, I admire anyone that has reached down into the pit of their soul and looked in the face the demons that live in all of us. This is why music is so important to me it has been the source and comfort be it the madness of Slipknot of the comfort of Mozart. For at times when I had felt completely alone and that no one understood all I needed to do was throw on some music. It would take to much space to list every bit of music that has touched my soul but the point to it all is that I believe deep down that we are in some form of pain or another and I think those of us that are looked at as sic are the only true healthy ones you could say for we have met our demons face to face, said what's up and embraced the madness. We are the few, the proud, the openly sic and my hat goes off to you. KEEP THE SICNESS ALIVE AND REMEMBER STAY HARD ALWAYS.
Here I am in the 80's with a typical 80's chick.
I think I was about 20 or 21 here.